Low self esteem.

And honestly, I've very low self esteem. Each time I looked into the mirror, I'd be like "FASTER LOSE WEIGHT LEH. " "ANOTHER PIMPLE. " "UGLY LIKE FUCK SIA. " / walks off.

Yes, I've never seen myself as someone who's pretty and slim. I've never seen myself as that "pretty friend". I'd always see myself as someone who's ugly/ fat/ disgusting person. So yes, I know at times when I say I'm ugly or fat, people gets pissed off. Because wtf they'd think I'm attracting attention. Think whatever you want, because someone who really understands me will know what I've been through.

But still, I'm really glad that before I graduate, I found awesome friends. A lot of awesome friends. They're the one who made my secondary life so complete, so fun, so fucking awesome. Without them, I'll be probably dead lol. I'm glad that I don't get bullied/ ignored by friends because all my friends are so niceeeee, love them so much hehehe. (L)

30 September 2011 @ 8:16 am / 0 daisies

Keliciatay

Low self esteem.