离别。

Guess some of you would have already known that I did real bad for my O's. I really broke down when I saw my results and my heart really sank when I saw my results slip. I cried my heart out and fuck, I'm really really fucking miserable. 4 years of secondary education, all wasted because of my fucking lousy results. Although I did well for some.. But I really am so fucking sad.

Since I'm never ever gonna do well in my studies or whatsoever, I think I've made up my mind to either go to an ITE or just stop schooling. And I'm not even kidding.

Don't even know what to do with life now, facing so many unhappiness and fucking hell, I really can't take all these shit anymore. Crying alot these few days and my eyes are so swollen I think I'm gonna die lol.

It's really saddening to see everybody going separate ways and moving on with their life because to be honest, I don't want to move on at all. If only money can buy me a time machine, I'm more than willing to spend all the money just for the memories. I really miss the past.

I miss those times in secondary school.. I miss first day of school, how everybody became classmates, friends and besties. I miss those times in secondary one when everyone was so silly, looking nerd and always fooling around in class. I miss those times when we used to squeezed in one table cause the canteen tables and seats were never big enough for all of us. I miss those times when we whined, cursed and hated on people cause we find them annoying. I miss those times so much..

I miss those times in secondary two. How we all became so united and close, how we all stopped wearing spectacles and wore lens, how we all laughed at each other for being so ugly and dumb in secondary one. How we used to laugh and bully Miss Fasha or Mdm Fang, how we used to be so mischevious. How we used to be so close, telling each other everything, going to SJAB together, laughing like mad with everyone in SJAB1995, I really miss those times.

I miss those times in secondary three. I remembered clearly, on the first day of school in 2010, we were all not close to each other. Everyone had their own clique but still, we ended up to be so close. And united. <3 Those times when we laughed and joked with Mr Lim during POA lesson, how we used to hate Chemistry lesson so much cause the lesson is forever boring, how we used to enjoy P.E so much.. How we used to laugh at how silly and qtpie Ilyas is, how we used to laugh like mad at Karthik and Fadhli..

I miss those times in secondary four. How our class started bonding cause of Sports Carnival, how united we were during Sports Carnival, cheering everywhere we go, taking thousands of pictures, doing the same hairstyle and many many more. Miss those times when our class became more and more bonded together as one, when we went for class movie. Remembered clearly I was sitting beside Adam and Syazwi, and I screamed damn loud that both of them was scared cause of my screams not the movie hahaha. Pirates and the Carribean! I remembered how we became more and more united as days passed by, and those times during Rcube day. And when we customised a tee-shirt just for 4/8, saying I love 4/8. I think we're really the most united class and I'm really glad I got into 4/8 <3

I'm really really gonna miss all those times in rss. I'm really really gonna miss all my classmates and everything..

I guess 2012 isn't gonna be good year for me because it's only the 9th of Jan and I'm crying so fucking much these few days. I don't even know what and how to continue with my life, I need some advices sighs.

9 January 2012 @ 7:13 am / 0 daisies

Keliciatay

离别。