All the time.

I don't know what's up with me lately. I feel so insecure about myself, every single time. I'd look in the mirror and wonder why am I not born pretty. I'd look in the mirror and wonder why I'm so motherfucking tall/ fat. I'd look in the mirror and wonder why do I not have pretty facial features. Why are some people just so fucking lucky? To have good looks etc. I know I should stop being so insecure about myself or bother so much about my looks. But the truth is, the society is so god damn judgmental. People look down on you or despise you if you're ugly. I wonder how many people actually look at me and say, "Look at how fat and ugly she is. I'd never be like her. " ☹

I'm so mafucking fat I need to do something about my weight. I've been trying and exercising a lot already but I really have to have more self-discipline and motivation. ☹☹☹☹☹

I need to have more self-discipline in my studies too. UTs (examinations) are here and I haven't been revising ☹☹☹☹ I need to start studying and stop playing blackshot lolol. I bet sooner or later I'd get addicted to it that I'll play every night. ☹ What's up with me recently, seriously ☹ I need to study and buck the fuck up! ☹

Apologies for the spamming of ☹☹☹☹☹ because I'm really very upset and demoralized. Sighs, bye. ☹☹☹☹☹☹

18 June 2012 @ 6:09 am / 0 daisies

Keliciatay

All the time.