Because life is bad like this.

Decided to private my blog, and probably not give anyone the link. I don't know what to say, but I'm afraid people will despise me, judge me or hate me. I don't know what to do. Life have been very depressing these few days. Although I'm very reluctant to tell my babies what happened, I really wished I could tell them... But again, I thought it'd be better for me to keep it to myself. I cried 4 times yesterday, and I woke up in the middle of the night 4 am to find myself dreaming about something and cried again. I looked into the mirror and look so horrible.. And yes, swollen eyes again. Was supposed to go jogging with Evonne, but I decided to change plans with her because I know she'll be worried..

Right now even when I'm blogging, I'm crying like shit. I don't know what to do. Yes I tweeted this yesterday, but it's fucking relevant to me right now.
"是不是因为我常常装作没事情发生, 人人都认为我没事? 是不是因为我常常笑着, 人人都认为我很开心? 是不是因为我装作我很开心, 人人都认为我很坚强, 一个人也无所谓? 是不是因为我对每个人都很好, 人人都把我当成是理所当然的?"

1 October 2011 @ 6:19 pm / 0 daisies

Keliciatay

Because life is bad like this.