Upset.

Most of you would have known that I have been super upset this week... Ever since school started. No it's not because my classmates are bitches or school are torturous... I'm not gonna say it out here but my close friends would have known bout it. This time round, if I really give up, I think it's gonna be the best decision I've made. There's really no point in holding onto so much and yet getting nothing in return. I have been really upset these few days I can just cry while walkin home alone. And I did that like quite a few times this week.. I can just stare into blank space and think about how fast people changes and tear again. I can look at my text messages and ask myself "Is this really what you want?" and cry again. I can brood over it for a few hours and cry again before heading to bed. I can even cry while blogging this post lol ok. I've never told anyone this before but I really must admit, I can't keep all my unhappiness inside me anymore. It's really so tiring I don't even know what to do. I've never been this upset before in my life that I can't even find someone to talk to. It's not that they don't care, it's just that I think i should just stop bothering them. All my friends have been very caring and concerned about me and I really don't want to trouble them anymore.. They have been giving me good advices and.. I didn't heed their advices. T_T I kept asking myself, "Is he even worth it? " And sometimes I would think and decide he's not and I'd made up my mind to give up and ignore his text messages and all but then again, I'd pick up my phone and text him. Why am I always in a dilemma? Because I really am happy with him. Well at least in the past.
People ask me to find a better guy, and "Why give up a forest for a tree" that kind of thing. I asked myself a lot of time and I don't know why either. People ask me why I don't bother looking at hot guys or having eyecandies in school (fyi I always do that lol). I told them I don't bother because... Most of the time I will have a crush on my eyecandies and etc. okay main point is, i'm trying to stay faithful here l o l. How nice of me lol. But it sucks to know people take you for granted and etc.. I really think I DO deserve someone who'd NEVER take me for granted. And to be honest, all my past exs had NEVER taken me for granted before hahahahahaha. I think any one of them can make me happier now, that's if we're still together la l o l. It's really a tiring week and I hope all my misery can go away...

Time for work and I'm meeting my babies! No money for lunch again (as usual) -_- okay byez.

20 April 2012 @ 7:57 pm / 0 daisies

Keliciatay

Upset.